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REMEMBERING MOM...❤️

  • Writer: Dave Chouhan
    Dave Chouhan
  • Jan 5
  • 3 min read

Hello everyone.


It's been a whirlwind of activity prepping my books for Amazon. I have not even had a moment to breathe! I didn't plan to stop at all until the last book was converted and uploaded.

Then three things just happened to change that:

-Today I am working on converting the last book, and I just saw the Dedication page in that book specifically mentions my MOM.

-Yesterday was a tough day, three years since Mom's passing, which is still a "Fresh" wound, especially when I think of Dad struggling without her.

- A dear friend met us yesterday and brought us gift "journals," which she swears by.


This blog is my version of "journal-ling," to process deep thoughts.

It seemed God was hinting I should take a moment...


This pic I shared isn't the best of us, but it represents a time when Mom and I were alone in England, while the rest of the family was trying to re-establish in Canada.

It was a difficult period, but triggers a fond memory of when we carried each other.

I was young then (from age 11 to 13,) but finally old enough to appreciate the challenges adults must face in astronomical life decisions. Mom was a "firebrand," single-handedly "holding down the fort," looking after me and everything else, eventually negotiating the sale of our house and all of our worldly possessions, then getting us safely to Canada. It was a mammoth undertaking.


That's when I first understood Mom's true strength. She didn't have all the answers, but she was BRAVE, knew no fear, and showed me fortitude in action. And she was that way throughout her life, especially in the last decade of her life where she suffered debilitating illness without ever complaining. Despite that struggle, she still put a smile on her face, was happy, and always asking how everyone else was doing.


Mom always showed her Love. For that I'm supremely grateful.

But I also wanted to make her and Dad PROUD of who I became, and what I accomplished in life...

Not sure where I landed with that one.


"Old generation" thinking places little value in "art" ventures as a viable career avenue.

I would get the, "that's nice" comments when I showed them stuff I'd done, but no real interest; actually discouragement instead of encouragement.


I understand that it's a difficult path, but NOT impossible. I always tell people what would have happened to J.K. Rowling, Tolkien, Dr Seuss, and so many other very successful "creators" if they had succumbed to people projecting that mindset?

After decades of dissatisfaction in "Regular" jobs for big corps, I felt I owed it to myself to at least try something different that I might enjoy.


I really wanted Mom to see me hit commercial success with these books before she passed. The fact that she didn't is a bitter mental "thorn" I can never remove.😢

(I'm not sure Dad will even see that moment.)

If I sat there with that unresolved disappointment I would sink into deep depression.

NOT an option.

Instead, I choose to seek & trust in God's guidance, then put my best foot forward.


It's been 5 hard years slogging to get to this point, with the books, plus with all the other BIG life challenges we had before us. Denise and I have won some major battles.


If Mom is watching, I can only hope she is proud of what we have overcome.

I know I am. And I can promise her this New Year I will keep pressing forward, to the best of my ability.


Blessings,🙏🏾

Dave Chouhan, AKA Captain CHOO💖 & Denise Chouhan, AKA First Mate - "The LIONESS of Penzance," AKA "Deadshot Rattling Rum!"



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